mar. '10
bakit gustong gusto ko na binabalikan ang nakaraan?
pantay lang naman ang lungkot at saya.
dahil kasi kahit gaano ako nalungkot at nasaktan, pinili ko pa rin na maging masaya :)
at palagi kong aalalahanin ang mga magagandang moments sa life ko.
and the bitterness and heartaches?
serves as my lessons.
true!
pero ayoko man magbago (gusto pa rin kitang mahalin)
eto na ko eh.
eto na. meron na.
wala ka na.
masakit *medyo*
nakakalungkot *talaga*
i really need to move forward and never look back.
sorry pau i didnt make it.
i really miss you but i have to finally let you go.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
~o3
Jan. '10
oct. 14, 2006
this day.
the guy i fell in love with.
for 2 years.
of laughter and tears.
hugs and kisses.
fightings and cuddlings.
words of wisdom.
sweetness.
we we're inseparable.
but now he's happy.
i know he is.
i just wish him the best.
i will never forget.
guy i will always.
the guy i gave my whole heart with.
been all his.
and still his.
♥♥♥
oct. 14, 2006
this day.
the guy i fell in love with.
for 2 years.
of laughter and tears.
hugs and kisses.
fightings and cuddlings.
words of wisdom.
sweetness.
we we're inseparable.
but now he's happy.
i know he is.
i just wish him the best.
i will never forget.
guy i will always.
the guy i gave my whole heart with.
been all his.
and still his.
♥♥♥
nothing is constant but change.
May '09
its over.
but there's still question left unanswered.
words left unspoken.
promises left unfulfilled.
more often than not.
we gone feel not the pain f parting.
it is we who stay behind that suffer.
because we are left with memories.
we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
unfair as it may ssem.
but thats the way love goes.
the drama.
the bittersweet.
the risks.
after all,
nothing is constant but change.
everything will eventually come to its end.
like every dawn has its dusk.
without us even knowing when how and why
something we cant control.
something we had to live up.
because im gone.
but has to go on.
its over.
but there's still question left unanswered.
words left unspoken.
promises left unfulfilled.
more often than not.
we gone feel not the pain f parting.
it is we who stay behind that suffer.
because we are left with memories.
we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
unfair as it may ssem.
but thats the way love goes.
the drama.
the bittersweet.
the risks.
after all,
nothing is constant but change.
everything will eventually come to its end.
like every dawn has its dusk.
without us even knowing when how and why
something we cant control.
something we had to live up.
because im gone.
but has to go on.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
my FIRST step.
And because love, to begin with,
was never easy to understand.
Intelligence may aid in the control of emotions,
but never in the control of love. But perhaps,
it’s this lack of understanding that makes
love special. It’s a risk. A gamble.
The stakes range from scars on the heart,
to a life. That is, a lifetime of misery
and grudge or happiness and joy.
its no use crying over a spilt milk
what a waste.
just this morning i felt so lonely.
and of course i cried.
i dreamt of something that's too painful.
and very hard to manage.
i cant barely cope in that dream.
im helpless.
no other way but to ACCEPT.
that we sometimes get LOST.
in the road of life.
and the sad thing is.
you will never find yourself again.
but i wont let that happen to me.
yea. we lose someone we loved.
no matter how tight we hold on.
yet sometimes we had no choice.
but to let it go.
because sometimes the people we want the most.
are the people we're better off without.
i got between the horns of a dilemma.
and this really made me confused. it is really hard.
so many thing that came up to my mind.
if i could take it.
if that wont be a bitter pill to swallow.
if i wont regret it.
because i dont wanna go back to that bullsh*t crap again.
and now i chose to be alone than to be miserable.
they say moving on is a process.
and acceptance is the first step.
im not mature enough to face this fact.
to appreciate it.
but i do agree.
and i think im stepping to it now.
for now i just dont want to recall all about him.
bout us.
i dont want to get mad to him too.
i believe im a great person.
once someone makes it into my heart.
he or she will be my FRIEND for life.
i wont forget those things that made both of us smile.
those butterflies-in-the-stomach feelings.
and the sacrifices i made.
it made me feel better.
coz for once.
i loved.
truly and deeply.
the greatest feeling i've ever had.
currentLy Listening: doin just fine
after watching gossip girL season finaLe.
:)
was never easy to understand.
Intelligence may aid in the control of emotions,
but never in the control of love. But perhaps,
it’s this lack of understanding that makes
love special. It’s a risk. A gamble.
The stakes range from scars on the heart,
to a life. That is, a lifetime of misery
and grudge or happiness and joy.
its no use crying over a spilt milk
what a waste.
just this morning i felt so lonely.
and of course i cried.
i dreamt of something that's too painful.
and very hard to manage.
i cant barely cope in that dream.
im helpless.
no other way but to ACCEPT.
that we sometimes get LOST.
in the road of life.
and the sad thing is.
you will never find yourself again.
but i wont let that happen to me.
yea. we lose someone we loved.
no matter how tight we hold on.
yet sometimes we had no choice.
but to let it go.
because sometimes the people we want the most.
are the people we're better off without.
i got between the horns of a dilemma.
and this really made me confused. it is really hard.
so many thing that came up to my mind.
if i could take it.
if that wont be a bitter pill to swallow.
if i wont regret it.
because i dont wanna go back to that bullsh*t crap again.
and now i chose to be alone than to be miserable.
they say moving on is a process.
and acceptance is the first step.
im not mature enough to face this fact.
to appreciate it.
but i do agree.
and i think im stepping to it now.
for now i just dont want to recall all about him.
bout us.
i dont want to get mad to him too.
i believe im a great person.
once someone makes it into my heart.
he or she will be my FRIEND for life.
i wont forget those things that made both of us smile.
those butterflies-in-the-stomach feelings.
and the sacrifices i made.
it made me feel better.
coz for once.
i loved.
truly and deeply.
the greatest feeling i've ever had.
currentLy Listening: doin just fine
after watching gossip girL season finaLe.
:)
aizh3n07 wrote on Jul 23, '08you know i neEd yoU in my LifE ..
buT its seNseLess ..
take baCk tHe thing yoU want the moSt ..
i know its noT me
iT wiLL neVer bE ..
just because i flirt doesnt mean im interested.
ive got a lot of friends recently.
some are from tagged and friendster.
today juLy19. i got 1080 views in fs.
not that popular. :)
they're nice. but some are not.
well im not giving attention to them
i mean i can make friends as long as they are not too gross.
and. just making friends. :)
not more than that.
regardless of being single (technically) this time.
i enjoyed myself.
i dont bother my recent pb's
yea im thinking bout the us.
but whatever it is.
im ready to accept what's gonna happen next.
*sounds i learn too much huh :)
but then again.
just bcoz i flirt
that doesn't mean im interested.
im still waiting for my man.
whoever he is.
i know he's deserving.
break a Leg :)
some are from tagged and friendster.
today juLy19. i got 1080 views in fs.
not that popular. :)
they're nice. but some are not.
well im not giving attention to them
i mean i can make friends as long as they are not too gross.
and. just making friends. :)
not more than that.
regardless of being single (technically) this time.
i enjoyed myself.
i dont bother my recent pb's
yea im thinking bout the us.
but whatever it is.
im ready to accept what's gonna happen next.
*sounds i learn too much huh :)
but then again.
just bcoz i flirt
that doesn't mean im interested.
im still waiting for my man.
whoever he is.
i know he's deserving.
break a Leg :)
moving on is a process ♥
It is true that acceptance
is the first step to moving on
but I have always believed that
we can never forget the person we love.
You may have accepted
that he doesn't love you anymore
but have you really asked
yourself if you feel the same way?
I guess you really
haven't gotten over your feelings for him.
Your love is the chain that
keeps you bound to your past and for
as long as that love remains silently burning
in your heart you will never forget
the person that feeds that flame.
Acceptance will put one
foot forward on the road to recovery,
but the only way to move on completely
is to get the other foot out from the
love that binds your heart to him.
Peace is in knowing that
you are breathing the fresh air
of the present without being tainted
by the stale memories of the past.
Every time you cry
whenever you remember him adds one
glowing ember to the flame in your heart.
Every time you become sad
when you think of your happy moments together
blows more air to that burning fire.
As long as there is that
fiery emotion burning inside your heart,
you will never be at peace with yourself.
For most of us,
there will always be a past that
will remind us of beautiful memories
that we wish would come back to life.
But the difference between
those who have found real happiness
and those who are tirelessly searching for it lies
in their ability to stop living in their past
and wishing for the things that could have been.
Happy people are those who know how to
accept the verdict of the past
and forgive themselves for being part of it.
When we have loved and failed,
we have to grieve for a while
and then learn to stop loving that person.
Only when we are able to do
that can we open our hearts anew
and learn to love again without
having to be burdened by the guilt
and regrets of the past.
Learn to let go..
not every single detail should be written
did you like the previous one?
the dreamland.
the perfect match.
the great thoughts.
i cant believe ive done that.
i dont know where i got my best to show him how much he loved.
those sacrifices.
i forgive and forget.
i always know i will cry but i still give it a try.
i was hurt but still continue to love him.
but now i think i cant manage to do the next big hit.
to still wait for him.
for him to realize those what ive done.
to appreciate every little thing i did.
they say help others grow.
guess im too tired with that.
he’s always been forgiven and loved.
we’re perfect then.
he made me cry a lot of times.
but im still there waiting for his sorry.
and again. gone on with life.
its fun. to love him.
but hei. who’s perfect now?
with just one mistake.
i did.
till one night we decided to left each other.
just last night i realized the most painful thing.
its when both of you love each other and yet you could not patch things up.
where’s the pain?
it is when one decided to end it up. and the other has no choice but to give it up.
and shit! i really had no choice.
everything fell apart.
no more him. no more us.
it all ends last night. and that’s it.
i made it easier.
i never lost my faith in him.
i admit i cant let go.
coz all my life i never felt such feelings like this.
i know myself. if im in love.
and the word LOVE is just for him.
i know its my fault.
i dont know if it is forgiven or not.
but hei! christ can forgive.
i beg him. and he just said *hell no*
the moment i heard that its more of a gunshot.
idk. its not that im too emotional.
i thought of something like this.
he’s not being fair.
we knew how much we loved each other.
the unforgettable moments we shared.
and the painful experiences that we passed.
the wounds are vitally deep.
so is there any enough reason to tell me that easily?
i love him. and that’s the only thing i know.
i may not feel it everyday but in my mind and in my heart.
that’s it!
now. everything has changed.
things are not the same.
i could never see his face again.
the greetings used to wake me up.
the endless goodnights. and iloveyou’s.
i could never hug my pillow again.
been waiting or let him go.
i still dont know.
its not a matter of winning or losing anymore.
but im ready to accept what’s gonna happen next.
right this time, the only thing in my mind is if he still loves me.
he would still find ways to come back to me.
or if not.
i will keep this in my mind.
nagMAHAL aco.
im ready for everything.
and someday he will know.
ღ εїзRosELεїз ღ Says:
July 9th, 2008 at 8:30 pm
yOu desErve 2bE hapi girL!!
leT gO of whAt maKes yOu huRt aNd misErabLe hehe kya mo yan dami naGmaMahaL sAu nOh….
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